Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Jauh



Bismillah,

Hari ini bukanlah hari yang sempurna. Alhamdulillah lebih baik daripada semlam. Berharap esok lebih baik.
Minggu ni juga bukanlah minggu yang sempurna. Tak tahu kenapa, minggu ni minggu rebel. Minggu rasa mcm nak smack orang laju2. Minggu yang aku nak cakap kat semua orang pasal apa yng aku tak puas hati pasal dorang.

Well, a few dah aku cakapkan.

Minggu ni minggu emo.

Aku dah tak tahan menahan rasa tak puas hati yang aku simpan. Ada yang aku luahkan direcly and indirectly. Aku harap ada yang faham. Kalau yang tak faham tu, may Allah bless you.

Tapi hari ini Rabu 25 April 2012 menjadi satu hari yang aku rasa klu boleh dicepatkan waktu, nak je aku cepatkan sampai tahun depan.

Kenapa?

Aku rindu someone. Tapi rindu itu tak bisa aku luahkan.
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Hari ni klas start kul 9 until 4 pm td. Then continued dgn kelas skill at 8pm. Ok aku penat. Penat dengan assignment, penat dengan program. Penat lah.

Hari ni kelas Basic counseling skill, langsung aku tak focus. Sibuk mengemas kini data participant for prog this coming weekend. Baca twitter, penuh TL dgn kes officer n mak guard dtg menyaman student. Parah. Itu je aku fikir. Laptop tak register. Elok je atas meja. Memang cari nahas. Dah terfikir, jangan lah kena saman. Aku tengai sengkek now. Duit nak mkn pun berikat. Ni pulak nak kena bayar saman RM50. I’m dead.

Balik bilik, naaahh indah terhias atas meja kertas pink membuktikan aku dah kena saman. Well, takkan nak happy plak kan. Of kos la terkeluar sikit kata2 cacian. Tak banyak sikit je. Eh satu je la. Aku cakap ba alif ba ya je. Pastu dah aku senyap. Sebab dok fikir camne aku nak bayar ni.

Stress sangat aku terfikir nak kol mak. Tapi mak mesti dah tidur tak nak ganggu. Then aku kol Kay. He picked up. Bermulalah sesi meluahkan perasaan stress and tak puas hati kena saman. Kay pulak sebangku je dengan aku, join gak emo. Hahahahaha J

After I hang up, aku sebak. Sebak bukan sebab aku geram kena saman. Aku sebak sebab aku rindu someone. Aku realized that actually I want to call someone else. Tapi feared that he wont pick up make me gave up. Aku ingat lagi saat aku sedih gila pasal barang aku hilang, I tried to call him tp dia tak angkat. Last Saturday pon camtu. Now I give up. Aku rasa aku bodoh. Mengharap benda yang memang dah xkan ada.

 Aku selalu ckp pada diri sndiri, you are not going to fall on him again. Tapi somehow hati degil.

We were close before. But now, totally strangers. Dulu lepak kat kafe makan2 sembang2 for hours. Now sit in one table macam tunggul buat hal masing2. Aku kalau terserempak buat2 tak nampak. Kadang2 sanggup u turn or ambk jalan jauh sbb tak nak terserempak. Punya la macam tu. Dia pon, kalau dengan aku tak happening langsung. Dengan aku serious je. Kalau dengan orang lain happy go lucky betol. Heran betol.

I feel bad. i'm sad. Tapi aku terapkan dalam hati ‘ Ignoring is the best way of healing’

He may not know that how much I love him. And how much I miss him. Xde apa sangat yang aku harapkan selain mendapat kembali KAWAN  baik yang ada dengan aku dulu.

Kadang2 aku nak tahu sangat, kenapa dia buat mcam tu.

Dear N, I know you know how I feel. Well u rejected it. No worries. I learnt to accept but don’t trash aways our friendship too. We can make it. We should try.

Wassalam

Love

I.R

Friday, April 20, 2012

TajMahal




Di sana pungguk menanti
Mengharap bulan membalas rindu di hati
Di sini aku berdiri
Menunggu penuh dengan kesabaran
Tanpa manis madah

Janji yang puitis
Tuk persembahan
Hanya ketulusan
Sekeping hati suci


Aku
Berikan kasih
Kalau itu yang kau mahu dari ku
Aku
Berikan cinta
Untuk membahagiakan hari mu
Aku
Sayang dirimu
Biarpun nafas ku sampai terhenti
Akanku kota janji kita

Mendirikan Tajmahal cinta
Seteguh kasih
Shah Jehan kepada Mumtaznya


Terasa indah pabila berdua

Semakin tiba saat bahagia
Merai cinta kita
Aku

Berikan kasih
Kalau itu yang kau mahu dari ku
Aku
Berikan cinta
Untuk membahagiakan hari mu
Aku
Sayang padamu
Biarpun nafas ku sampai terhenti
Akanku kota janji kita

Mendirikan tajmahal cinta
Seteguh kasih
Shah Jehan kepada Mumtaznya

Ada Untukmu by Nubhan
Love
I.R













Laila Majnun

salam

tah kenapa tiba2 rasa mcm xde idea nak tulis apa dalam blog. Dah bengap perkataan gamaknya.

Semalam pergi tengok teater kat Main Audi bertajuk Laila Majnun dgn besties Atie n Iera. Best teater tu. Alhamdulillah aku tak bosan sangat (bosan sikit je). Aku suka bila dorang combinekan serious n kelakar. Xde la stress sangat audience tengok kan. And the best thing is teater ni muzikal. Ada actor nyanyi. Actress tak nyanyi la sbb aurat. Ha tu lagi satu aku suka, dorang terapkan ciri Islamic dalam teater ni.

Aku terkejut gak sbb teater tu short je. sejam je uolss. But, compact. jalan cerita bagus. Dari sudut audience, aku rasa Laila Majnun is GREAT.Tahniah kepada komiti teater. Tahniah kepada penulis skrip dan pengarah.

Tahniah juga kepada ahli2 kanan (rightwing daaa) especially buah hati Iera :)

Ha tengok. Mati situ je cite aku. Kan dah cakap, otak mati idea. Pftttt

Ni mesti sebab dah guna for assignment yang bertimbun.






Thanks : 

Love 

I.R


Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Explorace

salam.

short and simple. 

Had an explorace last sunday. Checkpoints were at LOT 10, TIMES SQUARE, SUNGEI WANG, PAVILION and KLCC. we managed to complete only 3. Luckily my group got second prize. 

So tired yet have a lots of fun. One of the best experienced in my life. 

Why?

1 - Because i can go to LOT 10. I've never been there before. (kesian). 
2- Then, i got to know new people.
3. Got to know my leadership ability.
4. Practice my English communication skills. As one of the task is i need to promote a product for buyers. I became a waitress at an Arabic shop and i need to take their order, give that order and wallah my task is done! Seronok habis dapat cakap dengan tourist. 
5. I know i can be independence. 

Thank you CSC for the programme <3


waiting for the bus. nak balik Uia


we are the winner no 2 :)

lookinf for the place. Based on the clue. Tired T_T




Best members :)

* credit to Counseling Services Centre, IIUM for the pic :)

Love :

I.R



Sentap



Love :

I.R

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Jahat


I miss my old MP3!!!

I lost it after i left my bag at Nur Laman Bistari.

Damn it. Those people who stole my mp3 and Atie's camera is soooo JAHAT.

May Allah bless you people.

I.R

Malu

Salam,

today i had a program under Counseling Services Centre. And i was chosen as the moderator for the evening forum. Seriously when mdm Dinah asked me to be the moderator, i was quite taken aback because i'm not sure whether i can do it or not. I have never being a moderator. And Ira was chosen to be the MC. At some point, i was thinking on  to try to persuade Ira to exchange the role with me. but at the end, when i think that maybe I should grab this opportunity to be the moderator, so i need to grab it.

Honestly, first time being a moderator WAS so difficult. on the stage, i was LOST. At some point when i'm trying to say something my mind just go blank. Phewww. IT WAS HARD.

Alhamdulillah, along the session i recover and gain confident and become comfortable. Unfortunately, maybe because of drinking too many water since i have cough, almost at the end of the session, i cannot take it anymore. I NEED TO PEE!!!!

can you imagine, sit in that very cold hall for 2 hours. The program started at 230. Around 345 i just cannot hold it anymore. But i was still holding it. When the speakers speak longer that expected, i was desperately wanted to cut off their speech. Then the final question, I asked them to give their last words to the audiences. After i passed the mic to the first speaker, i jump off from the stage and run to the nearest toilet. To be truth, it's not that near. I run with my heels. Along, i prayed that they speak more and longer so i can managed to come back and conclude the session. I dont want them to wait for me. So malu!!

Luckily, after i went back the 1st speaker was still speaking. Phewww!! so lega.

Then, i conclude the session and that's the end of our programme. And after that incident, i was teased by one of the counselor as he said that -

' Sepanjang aku hidup 30 tahun ni, tak pernah aku tengok moderator keluar g toilet masa forum'

And my incident just brought laugh to the people around...

T_T

OMG sooooo malu!!!

But, i gained a lot of information about today's forum. Being the moderator and the audiences at the same time was so fun. 

Thank you Madam Dinah for choosing me. Thank you Allah for giving me all love and knowledge.

Thank you to all that support me.

Love you.

I.R